Day by Day

"Everything happens for a reason"

I've been taking things day by day, at first it was a huge struggle.. Now being close to ten months of being away from my past. I feel stronger, happier, loved and cared for. There isn't much I can say about my journey cause for me its so faded, yet I still can tell you that the hill I thought I was trying to get over was only a tiny grain of sand, but at the time it was more then a hill, more like a mountain. The only way I pushed through to stand on my own was with the help of those who cared enough to help me. It'll be a struggle to make it through what is ahead of me but I know I'm ready for it. I have been for awhile now.

I would be lying if I said that every smile that shines is a real one.

Only in reality its a frown to ashamed to show.

Dear Depression

I find you amusing. Nothing but pain and complications when you're around. When you're not there is still a shadow over my head. You made my life hell. I hate that you were so hard to control. Now that its not a issue I find it hard to believe that at one point you controlled my every move. I wouldn't want to fight you because I was to weak to face you. Now that I'm stronger you seem so small, Like the problems that you brought along, I can finally fight you and succeed til the end. My smile is brighter and that shadow is no longer here to dwell over me. I find the feels of sadness and loneliness are completely gone. I can actually hold on to how I'm feeling and embrace it. Being happy and waking up in the morning is what I look forward to everyday, Death is not an a choice when it comes to my thoughts now. Living for the moment, what I have and who I am is the only option for me. So depression please know I want you to be gone forever, Because how I'm feeling daily now is the way for me to Live my Life.

Love,
Kayla